When everyone really understood the magnitude of COVID-19, business dropped by 93%. In the grand scheme of things, this is not important and probably to be expected, but during this pandemic I quickly learned just how much of my own self-worth was tied into the success of my business. It's been a slow process of having to unlearn that. To know that even without it, I am still strong, resilient, smart, and adaptable (and of course worthy, no matter what my profession is or what path I decide to go down).
I have been slowly coming up for air. I haven't seen my friends in over 2 months but I've been getting to know myself all over again. I certainly don't feel "normal," and I don't know that we will ever meet our former selves when this is all over. I'm grateful for my health, for having a sober and clear mind, and for new days that have never been used before.
As a classic over-thinker, I've been going over and over all these questions during the past 70-whatever days.
"How I can continue to be of service to others? Am I of value even if I'm quiet? Will I let fear stunt my growth, or will I find the courage to show up as the heroic version of myself each day? Can I create the life I want if I decide to slow down? Will I be able to let go of the shame and guilt I carry when I do?"
I'm looking forward to the answers, which I've had all along.